"
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at 3 for days, and days"

-Matchbox Twenty

My wall calendar still shows August.

"'How old are you?'

'Well,' she said, 'I'm seventeen and I'm crazy.'"

I have spent too much time

listening

without

feeling

and too much time

speaking

without

knowing.

I've always been living half a life.

I'm scared that it's been less than that. That I've never really lived at all. That I've missed all of my chances to do so.

no more

I am not willing to prove myself by your terms. I will prove myself by mine. I will not accept that that's not the way the world works. The world needs to change, even if I must be the one to change it. I will be whoever the hell I want to be because I think it's right. I guess I have some work to do.

I just kinda want to say to you all that, although I may never have hated it, I'd really appreciate none of this ever happening again.

2010

a brand new year

I'm scared out of my mind.