"In short, a piebald parliament... of that multiform pilgrim species, man."

-Herman Melville

"He's one of those guys who could, you know, turn a phrase."

I miss this.

and in that moment when life and death tremble on the turn we are free. Free of hope, free of despair. Free of love, free of hate. Free of dreams, free of sorrow, free of responsibility. We are free of humanity and that moment is the blessing of life.

So maybe maybe maybe there’s no reason to cry, but how else do we know we’re alive?

Come sit with me a while and we will discover the world

We may not get it right, but we’ll never give up trying.

Perhaps the world will change around us

And we may fall behind.

But come sit beside me, and see what we can find.

ch-ch-ch-changes

change is slow and, no matter how much you try, it ain't never gonna be easy

Remember #2 (For You)

I just want to make this clear:

No matter what, I'm here. No matter what, I will be.

So don't worry about bothering me. I'd rather know.


always, ok?

Just because I'm not saying anything doesn't mean I have nothing to say.

I can't expect you to know this, not when you think my silence means something wrong. Not when you can't see that I don't want that life you've created around me. Not when you don't understand.

That's why I'm not saying anything.

year by year by year by year.

Everyone has stories from when they were 17. Stories that they will always remember about experiences, people and events that changed the tenor of the rest of their lives.

I kinda can't wait to find out what mine's going to be.

"and the world ends not with a bang but a 6."

found on http://finallyseeing.tumblr.com/

"
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at 3 for days, and days"

-Matchbox Twenty

My wall calendar still shows August.

"'How old are you?'

'Well,' she said, 'I'm seventeen and I'm crazy.'"

I have spent too much time

listening

without

feeling

and too much time

speaking

without

knowing.

I've always been living half a life.

I'm scared that it's been less than that. That I've never really lived at all. That I've missed all of my chances to do so.

no more

I am not willing to prove myself by your terms. I will prove myself by mine. I will not accept that that's not the way the world works. The world needs to change, even if I must be the one to change it. I will be whoever the hell I want to be because I think it's right. I guess I have some work to do.

I just kinda want to say to you all that, although I may never have hated it, I'd really appreciate none of this ever happening again.

2010

a brand new year

I'm scared out of my mind.